I had my birthday last month, and my friends and family made it so special as always. We went to dinner at a nice restaurant in a neighboring town about 45 minutes away. This particular restaurant has a cute sign on its roof as well as the string lights hung outside that all girls (myself included) love.
That being said, I had wanted a picture in front of the restaurant with my family and boyfriend; something I could possibly frame, or at least put on instagram. (Eye roll) Come time for the picture, my Aunty (a sixty- something year old Filipino woman) offered to snap a quick photo for us. While she did the best she could, the pictures came out being less than great quality.
Also, before we continue, I'd like to mention the fact that I work for a photographer part- time, meaning that although I am definitely an amateur, I've trained my eye to the basic components of a good photo, as well as conditioned myself to nit- picking, expecting perfection.
Okay, as I was saying...
Upon scrolling through the pictures, I couldn't help but to be a little disappointed. Some pictures were blurry, some were completely crooked, (crooked horizon line = big no-no) and some were just flat out unflattering. After expressing my disappointment to my boyfriend, he said something that really stuck with me; he turned to me and said "I think you're getting complacent." I was offended to say the least. Before I could reply he continued with "your aunty was nice enough to take pictures of us and you're being ungrateful and think they're terrible."
Immediately after he said this, I snapped back to reality and realized that he was right. It didn't matter what the picture looked like or if the angle was flattering or if the horizon line was straight. What mattered was the MOMENT. Those pictures got me thinking about all the other times I had attempted to capture an awesome moment and was disappointed with the photo itself and obsessed over the fact that I wish I had captured it perfectly, and well, I came to a decision to share them. Not because they're the most gorgeous photos ever, but because the moment was worth capturing.
Here are five photos I never in a million years would've thought to post, and the stories behind them.
The night we decorated our Christmas tree. We finished right around midnight and I went to take a shower and when I came back out into the living room I found my boyfriend and my cat, snuggling by our freshly lit tree. Ornament boxes still out, tree skirt still absent, heart still melting.
After that storm when the snow had fallen on the mountain. That dang stuff is so bright I couldn't even keep my eyes open for a picture! But I got to experience snow with this jellybean and I could barely contain myself. PS making a snow angel is a lot harder in ice :P
That time my best friend (tried to) surprised me by coming home from California for Spring Break. This was taken at 11pm at our local 24hr pancake house, and I was fresh off of a closing shift at work. You can tell by our faces that we were both pretty exhausted, but regardless, we sat there for about two hours sipping (okay, gulping) down our milkshakes and eating french fries.
Marco:) When I first got my 35mm film camera and took pictures of all my pets-- aaand then the film got light fogged. (Last time I leave my camera in the car on a hot day) But come on... look at that face.
And finally, one of the aforementioned pictures. Blurry and everything. But the people present made the evening, not the picture.
I still resent the fact that I had been (even if just for a second) acting complacent, but it was definitely something that I needed to hear. Not every moment, no matter how amazing it is, is made for capturing. (No matter HOW badly I want it to be) However, it is the MOMENT that matters, not the way it is presented through pixels. I will always want to perfectly capture beautiful moments, but I have learned (and am still learning) that it isn't how straight the picture's horizon line is, or whether or not it is in focus, that REALLY matters. It's how being in that moment and looking at that blurry picture of it made me feel.