On the Fear of Growth

I received an email a few months back that came from a reader through my blog’s contact page. I didn’t recognize the email address or the name. In this very polite email, the sender kindly pointed out that I had misspelled a word and suggested that I use a spellchecking website before publishing my posts. Now, I want to make sure that I say that this person was extremely polite and I replied with a sincere “thank you”. However, this person was a stranger to me and it got me thinking...

I really am putting myself —my life— on display; out into the world for anyone and everyone to see. Now, I know you may be thinking that it’s totally common sense— duh, we had presentations about it in elementary school. (“Digital footprints” and all that) I guess until I read that email, I believed that the only people who visited my little corner of the internet were my family and friends. I honest- to- goodness figured that I was indeed shouting into the void that we call the internet and that there was no way any stranger could find me here in my cozy little corner.

This small gesture, however positive, scared me a little. Okay, a little more than a little. I thought about all the personal  things I’ve ever shared here. About how I write about and share photos of my family and friends here. About how anything  is open for discussion here on the internet. Anyone with an opinion can voice it, no matter how much of a stranger they are to the given situation.  

 “Do I wanna subject my family and friends to criticism by strangers behind screens?” “Will I be able to bite my tongue if someone says something offensive?” “IF my blog grows, will the criticism come with it?” 

I took a major   step back. I talked to God and I talked to the people closest to me- the people I write about. After all, they hadn’t asked to be in the “public eye”. And after copious amounts of meditation, support and encouragement, I felt more equipped than ever to jump in. 

Not everyone writes a blog (Although, it can seem like it LOL), but I know for sure that so many people can relate to this. Having a dream but dismissing it due to fear and doubt- whether it be for themselves or others.  Because how can anyone do any good if they’re constantly in fear? The answer is straight up no. No grey area. I believe things are hardly black & white, but this is.

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.”

‭‭2 Timothy‬ ‭1:7‬ ‭NLT‬‬


So here I am again, jumping in. I hope I can encourage you to as well ❤️