Happy Heartbreak

If you’ve ever had your heart broken, you may find this title a little surprising. Trust me, I’ve had my fair share of it- i know. However, I’ve recently discovered that there is more than one way to have your heart broken, and not all of them involve sorrow and sadness.

In the past couple of weeks or so, I’ve been wrestling with certain feelings. I’ve let myself believe lies about myself, from myself. However, I have in turn been met with such an insurgence of love from the people around me.

And today, when I was reading my Bible, I was seriously overwhelmed with gratitude. Gratitude for the people who love me, and most of all gratitude for the one who planted those people in my life and these dreams in me. I prayed and I cried and I listened to worship music and I cried some more, and all I could say was thank you to my precious Savior and to my God. At first, my tears feel like guilt. Guilt that stemmed from the fact that I am so so undeserving of everything. That I did nothing to deserve any of it, in fact I deserve the actual opposite. Then, I realized that my tears felt like gratitude, like love. My heart was breaking, but not in the way you’d expect. 

My heart was literally just overflowing- breaking   (if you will) at the seams with love & gratitude. I couldn’t contain myself. I no words except thank you Jesus.    

I have never been more inspired to follow my dreams & use my passions. If you would have asked me a few weeks ago if I felt the same, I would’ve told you I was fearful.

 

This “heartbreak “ was a confirmation for me. It felt as if God was whispering to me that He is indeed right there, that He has given me all I need to follow my dreams, and that all I need to do is         J U M P